Friday, August 14, 2009

Emo day

Today was not raining not storming but yet feeling is just like in storm. Full of bad mood only the whole day. Why can't make myself happy for a moment? Why everything I make like making ownself walking the way to hell? Is it myself had a problem or i think too much about the thing i shouldn't think for every moment? Why I will always think about that while I was telling myself it won't happen? Hope too much at last die on own hand. Just another stupid me that won't do anything although know where the problem came from. Just like swinging a gold club towards head to the hole.

where the devil awaits me just below into that hole. How good of me sending myself to the devil. Just like the picture say below, who knows by just saying 'freakin' is just as bad for people to accept it.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

0515: August, 6th

Watching Happy Tree Friends ><
Damn geli watch until but the most bad part is, it is funny enough to forget about the geliness
in the movie ><
Try watch some of it when you all are stress, heh it may help you destress sometime~ will fill ur life with laugh.. ^_^

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

LoVe~ inspired by a forumer~

Its about LOVE, love is 4 simple words, easy to spell and difficult to define.


If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have two choices:

either tell what you feel and let the love take place or

hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions.

It's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds but when these two worlds collide and become one, that's what you call magic!

Love can never be so beautiful without friendship. One leads to another and the process is irreversible. The best of lovers is the greatest of friends!

I like you because you're my friend, and because you are my friend I care, and because I care, I love you. I don't love you because you are my friend, I love you because I do!

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make me happy? To think that I have everything else, I get what I want. Then I realized it was YOU, too bad 'cause it's you that I can't have. I can't choose who I'm gonna love, but I also can't just love who chooses to love me.

And you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as I can't blame you for not learning to love me. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me, so I'll let you go find him/her and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're looking for was the one who set you free.

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had?Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine?Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why I love someone who's love was never mine?

"Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love; we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone else.Food for thought, think of this:

Have you really cared for someone more than you expected?

Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all the pain?

Will you keep on loving him/her as he whispers someone else's name?

Will you?

It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride. When you love someone, don't expect that person to love you back the same amount. One of you will be ahead, the other behind. It's either you catch up or the other waits.

When you love, you must not accept anything in return, for if you do, you're not loving but Investing.

If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using. True love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart...

Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer you stay the harder it is to leave and you can never go without leaving your prints behind. Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season.

Love them like a river because a river flows forever.

Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'cause love doesn't have to end at all.

Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance.

Love may leave your heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again.

The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall! And fooling around with her feelings like they meant nothing!!!The most painful thing that it hurts you when you love and care a person more than just a friend..

Found this lovely article talking about love~ As for my thought, I think that if is that easy to find a love one, there will be no happy ending for the relationship. Is easy to like someone but it is not easy to love someone. It easy to spilt out words about love using mouth, but whats really important in love was actually the heart. Nothing more important compare to the feeling of the heart towards the special one. Love wihout using your heart it really means nothing because it is just a play of your emotion towards him/her. It was not fair for him/her who had treasured the love from you while you are just looking around and playing with feelings and emotion. Why can't someone appreciate love more than ever when they really have someone beside them? Why can't they think how happy they were when there have someone to share their happiness and sadness whenever they need?
All of this is what we could get from love and this is the things that makes human life but why some people can't get this point right? Many single people was hoping for this more than ever, they had wish to get someone to share their life together and pass their life together. But yet still have people couldn't get the meaning of love.
When will this kind of people know how to appreciate their other half for being there for them for this long? Really empty minded when looking at those peoples who don't really know how to appreciate their love one.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Here another birthday guy that just 1 day after my birthday guy~
We having our moment at Pure, while for myself, it was another moment where I had chance to celebrate my birthday with friends~ It had been long time since having a chance to celebrate my own birthday haha~ hopefully next birthday will be more richer and happier~

Gou Gou, Fei Mao, and me
Previous moment during my birthday and also Ravi birthday moment
Time pass so fast~ Gou Gou and Mao also went for training already.
So long didn't saw them and out with them already~ miss the moment behind~

Tension Day~

Tension night to pass... Tomorrow night exam and myself think that i totally unprepared for the exam.. How to pass the exam when I myself don't have any confident on passing the exam also ><><

Monday, July 27, 2009

Quite thinking at the beach

Treating my time at Pantai Kundur after went to medicate my sprain leg~ Far sea ahead but yet I couldn't feel that much lifely for me~ It's just like missing something out that I couldn't find it out~ Here it had me thinking about many things but mostly about what I am aftering for. Moment pass very long there, it had me kept thinking of the important one. Why there seem to be a empty space there in my life? |!(-.-)!|

How in the world I could fill the missing part in my life~ I can't totally get close to what I had dream to have to fill the missing part in my life here~ Whether far or close, it's totally beyond me and it seem that it wouldn't happen for now or ever~ Maybe for all this while, I shouldn't had start that feeling also.

Everything was really unclear for me. I don't know whether the feeling is true or fake now. I couldn't even tell myself whether I am really serious into it or not. Everything have just making me thinking alot about the thing I am after for right now. This truly had throw me out of hand and also had make me blank out for a period of time. I still can't make myself spelling it out..why? I wonder why everything seem not working while I had been trying hard to do it. Is it myself who are the one who had problem with it? Really out of mind ><


Still not yet sleep when time is running at 0632. How was it time for me to lay down and have a good night sleep -.-?? Wondering what time is't for me to sleep happily ><